Tipsy

Tipsy. This is one thing that others tell you and you take their word for it. They say your far too chatty then you say I am chatty then they say , no more than your usual. Then you shush. Tipsy. You feel great - yeba! I wanna get dwunk, or tipsy. You feel bad then you again say, I wanna go home drunk to my sleep, or maybe tipsy. But then again you never know. You never know if you've achieved it or not. They'll just tell you how you were the night before. There are so many ways to be drunk / tipsy (to be socially correct). No one wants to be told drunk, right? You always want people to know you can still have more and beg off by saying I'm just tipsy hopefully that should close the deal- the drinking deal. How do people get drunk? or tipsy? Some are sleeping beauties, flirts, diplomats, anger-management-potentials, political wannabees, caregiver-patient-candidates, and plain bores. Well, I guess there's more. Tonight, I am tipsy. Spilling my heartaches and hiding my pains. Blabbering like everything's fine. But that's not the creme-a-la-top. I went to a girly bar. Ahuh. Nope they did not get naked, thank you!. It was awkward to see girls grinding it in their two piece and glum faces. I don't knwo who's more pathetic: them "reluctant" girls doing their job. Or me watching them? Please note. I was dragged by a group of guy friends and another girl was with me. But then again, hw much more sorry can my lovelife be? Or the lack thereof? I'm posting this blog in future regret. Yes, I'm tipsy. You couldn't imagine the many times I've pressed backspace and retyped. Anymore typo errors and the heck with it. I try my best. Tipsy? It makes you feel alone when u go home. It makes you want to sleep. Bitter reality sinks in. And attacks. They're wrong. You don't forget about it but somehoe you get temporary courage laugh at it and say I'll be fine. And you'll need these moments. The times you actually convince yourself of real life. It sucks. But it's here. Tipsy or not.
P.S. I'd still say I've a better figure than those girls in the bar wehehe. I could maybe dance better too, then again. maybe not. Tipsy. ZZZZzzzz